I Think It's Time I Said The Truth

I have always been Christian. It is however only recently that I became a true follower of Christ. I came back to Him kicking and screaming. I came back dragging along my heavy bags and (quite honestly) old habits that indeed died hard.

I still remember the day I truly gave my life to Jesus. The peace and heavy sleep I had after casting all my burdens to Him. I knew my life was starting afresh but I also knew I had work to do.

I struggled with a whole load of old habits and old mindsets and one day I asked God to just "Help me know how to surrender, please."

He revealed to me ever so gently that I first had to openly name and shame. Yes, that's the name of the game! He told me that I needed to name my sins one by one and confess how each of those sins bound me. He told me that it is okay to tell Him why I like the sin so much. He told me to not fear being transparent when I am about to fall and He taught me that it is ok to say that I need help. God reminded me of Rev 3:20: "Here I am! I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears my voice and opens the door, I will come in and eat with that person, and they with me."

So that night, I told Him what sins held me bound. I dropped them quickly and heavily. I told God that the main reason why I kept hidden in sin for so long was because I feared being bold for Him. Being bold for Him meant saying no to me and that hurt. I told God that I feared letting go of my sins because they had been my home for so long. They were all I knew. I did not know how to trust God with my flesh because I did not know how to trust. The world did not show me the benefits of trusting in man. Man always let me down. Man always hurt me. Man always used me. So I did not know how to trust God with my life, let alone my next meal.

And so I had to name my sins and when I named them, I finally saw their root. I finally saw what the enemy did not want me to see. I was finally set free. And only then did I start praying the right prayer: Lord, teach me how to trust you. Teach me how to heal.

My spirit is heavy for all those who are battling secret and public sins and cannot find a way out. Try this today. Name and shame is the name of the game.

God is not afraid of your honesty. He seeks it. He seeks your freedom even more than you do, but you have to first let Him in.

Hebrews 3:15: "As has just been said: "Today, if you hear his voice, do not harden your hearts..."

Matt 11:28-30: “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.”