I Wanted to be a Funny Blogger

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This is not my first website, haha.

I have always had a love for writing and so I have always tried my hand at it with every opportunity I'd get.

I used to be a lifestyle blogger (I still am, I think). I would write about anything that would come to mind. I remember looking at my analytics almost three times a day after posting, (imagine that energy) and sulking because I wasn't 'hitting the numbers'. What happened next was me scouring the internet, seeking popular blogger's works at the time like Bikozulu's popular interview pieces amongst many others. I immediately felt the pressure to be just like them. I wanted to be as funny, as captivating and as successful.

I started imitating Bikozulu because I wanted to be just like him. I even contemplated getting guests to interview because I thought that the method was already tried and tested and so would be a instant success for me and mine.

As you can imagine, that flopped terribly. Not only did I fail at being as funny as Biko but I also failed the biggest test of every content creator-consistency. I thought , "Man, I will never be like him." And so I started fearing my own gift because I didn't think people would ever accept ocean-depth articles and reflective pieces over fun and chatter. I closed shop on blogging for almost 4 years, with a downcast spirit, unsure of how I would ever start again.

Whenever I wrote a piece, I always felt like I was writing for others and not for myself. (If you are a content creator, you know that you also need to enjoy your own work-otherwise the joy of your product will not sit within your spirit). I felt like I was not fulfilling my purpose. Like I was typing just because. I felt convicted with each and every post. I would always feel like I needed to make my work point towards something permanent-something sure. And one thing was for sure based on my work then, that I was not meant to be a funny blogger.

I was always on the edge when I looked at my growing portfolio of written works. It felt like I was striving. Like I was trying to be someone that I am not. And although a few people liked my work, I started to fall out of like with it. So I closed that door indefinitely until the day when it would feel natural and in-season.

When the time and season was just right, Dots of Grace came along, and I never even thought of blogging at first. I had a vision of a more audio-visual ministry because remember, my writing 'needed a lot of work'.

The kicker is this, that God gave me a highly complex mind and a highly introspective character. He sent me out with a unique writing style and I was never meant to occupy the comedy niche. I had been called into the healing and self-reflection/deliverance department.

When that finally became clear, I started to become more comfortable with my written expression. I stopped caring about how many people view/like my work.

What I am saying in many words is this, that I started to accept my method when I finally understood my calling and purpose. A few other things (bonus points) that written ministry has taught me about general ministry work and life:

1. It does not matter how many people come to your platform or view your work. What matters is how many people you have positively impacted.

2. If God is within your audience, you have more than enough behind you.

3. We all serve different fields. Uniqueness is power.

4. Keep running, your time of ordained elevation will come!

5. People pleasing is tiring. You cannot be everything to everyone.

I hope that this encourages you, if you are feeling like you are venturing into something and you are not 'hitting the numbers', 'getting the likes' or doing something that is 'popular'. Remember 'why' you are doing whatever it is that you are doing and then ask yourself if God is in support of it. It would also help to know what your purpose/calling is because this will keep you moving even when days get dark. Once your answers are clear to this, you will know that you are well positioned.

It shall be well! Remain positioned!