Ma-feelings

This was me doing a church small group discussion, running away from my feelings about the failed part of a running project I have

*Ma-feelings: Swahili Slang meaning “an overwhelming flow of emotion”

I have been in a fairly steady state of emotions.

I achieved a lot of personal goals this week, but I failed in some. In my audit of events surrounding my failed endeavours, I came clean to the fact that my emotions had a lot to do with it.

There is this project that I have been running with a partner and we had had a very good run over the past three months. We came along a major hiccup along the way and that bummed us out just a bit (alot for me, to be honest). I had told her that I was fine despite the hiccup. (I was not). Our dream seemed to be crashing in front of my eyes.

Flashforward and I am a bit better.

I look back at that time objectively. There was a long delay in my continuation of conversation with my partner. (I think they wondered what was going on and whether I had abandoned ship!). I asked myself the question “why” and the answer was simple. That at that time, I took that hiccup as a definitive axe on our tree. It took me back into days when I had lost things and people and I inwardly said, “Here it goes again”. I actively avoided speaking with said partner not because of anything they did (or the hiccup) but because I felt like I failed somehow (even though the hiccup was nobody’s fault!). It brought to my attention some areas I still am bleeding from that I need to address wisely.

I felt like I was losing again and my heart was unable to healthily process that. And so I bounced into an unhealthy loop of emotions as a way of dealing with a matter that a straight-up conversation would have sorted out.

The above situation happens to many people, and I am not any special. But could we address how easily our hearts can sink or rise in a wave of emotion? Could we talk about how unchecked emotions can ruin good things if let to run loose?

Take my example. That for me was a self-sabotaging moment and I let a past couple of memories attack a present opportunity for growth.

Are you currently battling with emotions that you feel are drowning you or running loose?

You are not alone.

However, I am here today to charge you to take authority over them. Your emotions do not run you. You have the mind of Christ. You are seated with Christ in heavenly places.

There will always be something that threatens the equilibrium that is your emotional steady state. But you have a decision to make each time. Do you let the emotion at the moment direct your path or shall you stand as the righteous whose steps are ordered by God?

I texted my partner back and I made a game plan to get back on track despite the hiccup we had. I am doing better now in terms of head-space. I am productive. I am healthier.

You are too, by the power of your testimony and the blood of the lamb, Jesus, through which we are delivered. (Rev 12:11)

I understand that things can be tough or demanding.

I understand that you feel broken on some days and so you want to lay down just a bit. That is okay.

Just do not settle there. Do not unpack and live in that space.

Take charge of your emotions today lest they disrupt and sabotage your breakthroughs, opportunities and blessings.

You are a champ.

Remember;

2 Corinthians 10:5

We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ.

Philippians 4: 13

I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.